Does this smile reach my eyes?
Does it cover up the ache inside
The pain, the tears, the misery,
I try so hard to hide
Happiness is fleeting
So thin, a lie
In itself a new found pain,
And rememberance, an agonizing cry
Who knew laughter could hurt
so deep it cuts like a knife
and guilt is sure to follow
it's not about my life
Perfection is vital
every look, every word
carefully measured
silence preferred
I cry silently inside, and by myself
i let it go, till sleep
bring darkness
sweet relief
I drive away
the ache is there
To return
the ache has stayed
I am here
nothing has changed
So I wait
Helpless
Giving fear to God
I am told
He knows my sadness
Not the first
Nor the last
